A Show Called My Life

We do go on living I wonder why
Do we have to? what if we had enough?
Couldn't we just raise our hand and quit
Do we have to stay till the end of that show
I hate it. don't I have a say, since am it's heroine
Why don't anyone listen to me
Why do I have to be there till the end?
Can't at least I take a break
Pause a little while, to go to the restroom
Don't I have a say about it
Can't I just leave the show?
I don't like it, I wanna quit
But is it an option? I think not.
I shall never commit such a sin,
Even such seductive and sweet sin.
I shall stick to the end
Whether I like it or not
I'll stay and watch that bad show
The show called my life


P.S
I honestly believe this is one of the worst poems ever written but I'd post it anyway

The Rape

Walking in the dark alley
Trying to hurry out
Afraid of what can happen
If she didn't leave it fast

An arm is wrapped around her waist
So fast and so strong
Grabbing her with cold blade on her neck
Her heart is drumming in her ear

"Don't say a word and may be you'll survive"
Tears falling down her face
"Don't hurt me, please"
Trembling with fear she said

His fingers like spiders crawling
Down under her skirt
She tries to push back
But the cold blade make her stop

Thrown down on the ground
Feels the filth and dirt on the floor
Throws his whole weight on her
She just can't take it no more

She fights back don't care about her life
She just wants out
Feeling the Punches and kicks
She taste the blood in her mouth

The cold blade and his weight
Makes her just give in,
Just enough for him to get it over with
Pinned down the floor she cries out loud

He stands with a grin on his face
Spit on her and leave her dead
She slowly gets up, and leave the dark alley
A murdered girl still alive.

My Broken Heart

Alone I stay at night
Bathing in the moon light
Washing away all the pain
The blood I bleed in-vain
The tears I cried for the moon above
Wounds from loneliness and no love
Asking silence to come upon me
To smile when am aching
To dance while my heart is breaking
To squash this pain deep inside
Till it wounds my tears and smash my pride
I stay strong try not vomit splints of my broken heart
To try and find a new start

Inner-self

I wanna show you my inner-self
I wanna get naked for you
I wanna show you my bruises
My barely beating heart
My crystal cracked soul
My bleeding thoughts
But I don't know if you'll see it

Or understand what you saw

Or appreciate what you understood

So I'll close back my wooden cocoon

And hide back forever

Through you

I've never been in love before
But through you I've been in love thousands of times before
Been dumped and abandoned and cried of a broken heart times before
Never have I felt the tender touch of a man before
But I've had sex million times before
Lover, boyfriends and one night stands I've done it before
Through you

I am 20 going on to 70
Through you I've lived an extra 50
And never will I feel young again
Or have a first time again
Thanks to you
My life is a history afraid to be repeated one more time.

Second (2nd)

Do you know how it feels
To always be number 2
Never be able to shine
Do you know how it feels
To always be in somebody's shadow
Well I do

Do you know how it feels
To know that whatever you do
You'll always come in second
No matter how hard you try
You'll always come in second
Like an eternal wound that keeps bleeding forever
Do you know how it feels
To shout from deep in your soul
But know that you are not heard
And you're second
Well I do

But If you do then you understand
When the time comes for you to shine
It's always too late
The light of your soul has broke for ever
When you come in first it doesn't matter any more
Cause in my eyes I'm always second

Untested Wings

I am a bird with untested wings
In the safety of my nest I wait
I know I can conquer the world
If you let me
I will travel the whole world
If you let me
I will do what no one done before
If you let me
I have a million plan
A whole life waiting
For me to live it
To try it, to just do it
But will I ever be
Able to test my wings
Will I ever fly away from the nest
Away from safety to try my wings
I don't know but I hope so
So until that. I'll wait in the safe nest
Until I get a chance to test my untested wings