My Broken Heart

Alone I stay at night
Bathing in the moon light
Washing away all the pain
The blood I bleed in-vain
The tears I cried for the moon above
Wounds from loneliness and no love
Asking silence to come upon me
To smile when am aching
To dance while my heart is breaking
To squash this pain deep inside
Till it wounds my tears and smash my pride
I stay strong try not vomit splints of my broken heart
To try and find a new start

Inner-self

I wanna show you my inner-self
I wanna get naked for you
I wanna show you my bruises
My barely beating heart
My crystal cracked soul
My bleeding thoughts
But I don't know if you'll see it

Or understand what you saw

Or appreciate what you understood

So I'll close back my wooden cocoon

And hide back forever

Through you

I've never been in love before
But through you I've been in love thousands of times before
Been dumped and abandoned and cried of a broken heart times before
Never have I felt the tender touch of a man before
But I've had sex million times before
Lover, boyfriends and one night stands I've done it before
Through you

I am 20 going on to 70
Through you I've lived an extra 50
And never will I feel young again
Or have a first time again
Thanks to you
My life is a history afraid to be repeated one more time.

Second (2nd)

Do you know how it feels
To always be number 2
Never be able to shine
Do you know how it feels
To always be in somebody's shadow
Well I do

Do you know how it feels
To know that whatever you do
You'll always come in second
No matter how hard you try
You'll always come in second
Like an eternal wound that keeps bleeding forever
Do you know how it feels
To shout from deep in your soul
But know that you are not heard
And you're second
Well I do

But If you do then you understand
When the time comes for you to shine
It's always too late
The light of your soul has broke for ever
When you come in first it doesn't matter any more
Cause in my eyes I'm always second

Untested Wings

I am a bird with untested wings
In the safety of my nest I wait
I know I can conquer the world
If you let me
I will travel the whole world
If you let me
I will do what no one done before
If you let me
I have a million plan
A whole life waiting
For me to live it
To try it, to just do it
But will I ever be
Able to test my wings
Will I ever fly away from the nest
Away from safety to try my wings
I don't know but I hope so
So until that. I'll wait in the safe nest
Until I get a chance to test my untested wings